Well, at least I didn't do The Ugly Cry. When I was feeling especially raw a few days ago, I pulled out the iPhone and recorded my feelings right there. I did that in place of calling a friend, not because there wasn't anyone to call (although it was dinner time and I try really hard not to call friends at that hour), but because I wanted to share a sad moment that I thought others might connect with.
Well, many others did.
After sharing stories, we connect to the vulnerable human inside our fellow humans. I like that connection. It makes the randomness of the universe seem less insane. I didn't even think twice about sharing my tears.
Until the next day when one of my closest friends (who also blogs) questioned the post.
"What was THAT about?"
I was kind of stunned, especially since she's a blogger. I started to question posting the video. Unease and insecurity crept in. I thought, "I should pull it down before anyone thinks I'm weak."
And then I rememembered that I'm human.
I'm not sure why my friend didn't get it, but that's okay. Like I told her, and like I said in the post, this blog is called Sugar in the Raw. That includes the good, the bad, and the ugly. Being vulnerable is sharing your heart and being real with others. But being vulnerable is a double-edged sword. On the positive side, you get to connect with others in a more intimate way, but on the negative, critics might see you as silly or weak.
But it's the ones we connect with that matter... even the ones that sometimes question us.