Heart Check

"The Hippy Chick in me and the Jet Setter in me are conflicting." On the one side, I want to live a glamourous life. On the other side, I want to be of service to others in a significant way.

I have been conflicted about blogging and life in general lately. I don't like to work for free, but I also don't think giving without any expectations of a return on my efforts is such a bad thing. Why do we always have to have a return?

I love to see my friends getting rewarded for their hard work, but there is a little poison in the well. It's been there for some time. It's a sense of entitlement that breeds contempt and jealousy. It's ugly and self-serving and I want no part of it.

There's a balance somewhere. When I get that feeling of internal conflict about the direction I'm going, I stop to do a heart check to make sure I stay in the right place. So many times, those heart checks pay off.

Last weekend, my husband's company hosted an amazing event. It was FABULOUS!! I was responsible for coordinating logistics at the event. I definitely got in touch with my inner bitch, but that night, it was jet set all the way, baby! I was on Cloud 9 all night. I worked my butt off and, in the end, I got to savor a very sweet moment.

Then it was back to work.

This week, I've had several different experiences and conversations with groups and brands. This morning in particular, I had two deep conversations about our philosophies on our on-line space and how we can keep contributing in meaningful ways. It comes down to two things:

1) Keep putting others first and good things will happen. 2) Stay true to you.

Having a servant heart in business seems counter-intuitive, but really, it's the best way to lead. My husband and I are both serving others in our businesses and, in return, we live a pretty sweet life. That's not to say that we have all the trappings of a luxury lifestyle, but as I said to him at the party last week:

"For a couple of schmoes, we've got it pretty good."

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