It hardly seems worth it sometimes...

It hardly seems worth it sometimes... Until the moment that you look at them growing up and all the disappointments you've faced as a parent wash away.

I have two adult kids that I love. To say that they are disappointing me right now is an understatement. Seems harsh, I know. But I think of all the things that I did for them and, except for the scar and an occasional call from Mexico, I could have just dropped them off at their dad's from Day 1 and nothing would be any different.

But I didn't. I sacrificed. A LOT. And the remains of our relationships made me cry today.

Then I stopped for a moment and saw the younger two kids. The ones that I am raising now. I can't predict how our lives will turn out, but they have my heart. All of it. And God forbid, should they one day pull it out and stomp on it, so be it. Because although it hardly seems worth it sometimes...

it really is worth every single moment.