Knowing

"Faith is taking the first step… even when you don't see the whole staircase." MLK

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This quote has had me thinking. With Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.'s holiday coming up, most people are thinking about where they'll go on their Monday off. I'm thinking about the staircase.

The staircase and where it leads worry me now. My faith has been worn down. I'm a supreme optimist with a healthy dose of realism and a dash of cynicism to keep my feet squarely on the ground. Most days, I can get through the daily obligations of being me. Some days, though, I'm frozen just thinking about the staircase.

I took a big step the other day... one that I'm sad I had to take, but one that any idiot could have seen needed to happen. Speaking to someone a few days before, I said the words, "Life's too short to be miserable." As those words came out of my mouth, I wondered how I could be so inauthentic as to say them out loud and not apply them to myself. It's not that I'm full of shit. I was just afraid of the staircase… and I have scarce amounts of faith left in myself and my decisions when it comes to this part of my life.

After declaring those words a second time in the middle of a parking lot with strangers looking on (because who doesn't love public displays of tension?), I made a decision to not live miserably any longer. I drove in circles for about an hour and finally ended up at the door of a dear friend and intuitive counselor

She wasn't home… but I did reach her over the phone and, after hearing that I finally made the move she'd been warning I'd have to make, she agreed to meet me two hours later when she finished all of her errands.

When Shawna answered the door, I felt immediately relaxed. She wasn't mad at me for being late. She just let me know that our time would be shorter. No problem, I said. I knew what I needed to ask. I wrote my three questions down on a small pad of paper in her office and waited while she invited Spirit to our meeting.

"Greetings… I feel you giggling inside… and I feel your worries, too."

Shawna is an intuitive counselor who channels a spirit guide. Whether you believe or not is not my concern. This is my story and this is what I know. I know that no matter what I've ever wanted to discuss, Shawna's spirit guide has gone around it and pierced through to the things that I really needed to confront. I know that she knew things I didn't want to know… things I kept hidden so deeply, I never thought about them. I know that I've ignored Spirit's advice on one particular matter for so long that part of my heart has atrophied. I have to admit that her guidance was right, which was why I was there.

I just needed some answers about the next steps on the staircase.

I asked my questions and received straight forward guidance. She told me exactly what I needed to be careful about and what I could relax about. What's funny is that I was worrying about things I didn't need to be worried about, and because my mind was busy fighting imaginary monsters, I wasn't putting enough attention on the things I needed to focus on. After our meeting, I rallied and went to work.

By the next morning, I was taking the first steps on the staircase and continue climbing out and up.

Step by step, I can feel my faith returning.

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If you are unsure about your next steps and would like to speak with Shawna about a meeting in person or over the phone, call 1-800-KNOWING.