Stop me if you've heard this one... "What you think about, you bring about."
Okay, so you can't really stop me so much as you could just bounce off... or you could stay and read about my week of clarity.
Although this week was all about business, deep down, I hoped my trip out to the desert would bring me some clarity in my current life situation. The desert has always been for me a place to quiet my mind and listen. Even with all the activities that were scheduled, I wanted to make sure to get some sit-and-listen time with myself. I kept the word "clarity" top of mind for days before boarding my flight.
Pack the bags.
Get to the airport.
Find the group and get to the hotel.
In the midst of all of my tasks, I had the word floating. The word rung in my ears. I spoke it out loud when I started to feel anxious. I could actually see it spelled on the blank walls in the terminal and at the resort. I learned one thing. When you ask for clarity about your situations and then add some other intentions on top of that, you are dodging manifestations like bullets.
Stop me if you've heard this one... "Be careful what you wish for."
My week started at Montelucia Resort in Scottsdale at the bottom of Camelback Mountain. The property was just gorgeous and serene. It was so beautiful, I wanted to just cry. (Okay, I may actually have shed some tears... I get very emotional in the desert.) As I was walking around, I noticed that everything at that place was about intention. But not until I went to the spa did I actually have to set an intention. Why not, I thought. I grabbed a rock that stood for strength, courage, focus in problem solving. I already had the word "clarity", so those intentions were sort of power boosted. I went in for my treatment and relaxed for a while.
Good thing, too, because within hours I had to call on that strength and courage.
I had to discuss a subject that I've brought up over and over, but this time, it was brought up to me. I wasn't in control of the situation and I got a little scared. Thankfully, I was able to focus and get into a state of problem solving in a way that didn't make me completely nuts. I might have become a little bit undone, but I didn't completely lose it. I honestly believe it was because I was in a clear state of mind and knew, logically, that circumstances were unfolding the way they needed to. I didn't fall back to a place of fear even though I wanted to curl up in a ball and rock myself to sleep in a dark corner.
Not that I've ever done that.
Okay, maybe once or twice... this month.
Now I'm on my way back to San Diego. I'm not going to be in the desert anymore, but I'm still in this clear state of mind and I don't want to let that go just because I'm going back home. I think it might be a good idea for me to start setting an intention for each day. And by that, I don't mean a To Do list. I mean rather than float through each day letting things happen around me, focus on a word or intention and handle the events in my life with more strength and focus.
I think that's exactly what I'll do.