Hindus believe that as creation began, the divine, all-encompassing consciousness took the form of the first and original vibration manifesting as sound "OM". When my creating begins, I just feel the all-encompassing feeling of nausea.
Writing can be a daunting task. Not only are you creating something from nothing, you might then take this collection of words, strung together by thought, and put it out for others to see and *gasp* criticize. Hitting publish on a blog post isn't nearly as difficult as sending something to an editor. I used to think publishing a post would eventually make me throw up, but I got over it. But sending work to an editor... a professional... to like, EDIT... that's different.
I'm so thankful to have the opportunities to write. But now, I have something I like to call Writer's Anxiety. It's beyond the common Writer's Block. I hardly have any blockage on writing. In fact, you could say I'm pretty healthy in that area. I can come up with ideas all day. Some of them are even decent. Writing for hire, however, creates a special nauseating fear in me that makes me yearn for therapy.
Or maybe just some circle time with other looney writers.
I'm easily distracted when I experience this Writer's Anxiety. I find lots of conversations that I can easily be pulled into on-line. I chat on Twitter... then Facebook... then poke around Google Plus. I find too many snacks in the fridge. I start sorting books in boxes, dreaming up new ways to categorize them all. I come across all the books on writing and get a twinge of guilt, but it's never enough to stop me from some other distracting activities. Classic avoidance behavior.
At least, that's what my circle group would tell me.
I try to calm myself with walks or relaxation techniques, but as soon as I open up the laptop, I'm back at Square One. Eventually, I click the keys a few thousand times and get my work to editors. Most of the time, it's pretty good. It's all good.
Still... I'd really like to get to that point without so much freaking out.
That's why I'm tremendously happy to have discovered OmmWriter.
I could tell you all about it, but I think you would get more out of downloading their free version and checking it out yourself.
Thank you Chris Brogan for recommending this on your site. You are the awesome. (Also, Chris... if you're reading this... I'm the girl that screamed in the elevator.)
Okay, back to writing.